Introverted Introspection

"I painted a picture full of poetry, In hopes that you would notice the cracks. Showed you a clearer..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 16:15:00 -0500

“I painted a picture full of poetry,
In hopes that you would notice the cracks.
Showed you a clearer me,
In hopes that you would mirror me back.
In hopes that I could travel a road full of prose,
And take that shit as far as it goes.”

"Music is the only thing I put my hope in. Use words to capture my mute emotions."

Sat, 11 May 2013 15:35:06 -0500

“Music is the only thing I put my hope in. Use words to capture my mute emotions.”

"So what if it hurts? The struggle is first. To live is to die, we all suffer the curse. Love is the..."

Fri, 10 May 2013 21:44:52 -0500

“So what if it hurts? The struggle is first.
To live is to die, we all suffer the curse.
Love is the cure, until we’re suffering worse
Pleasure is pain, the suffering’s first.”

This song lyrics hit me so hard, I couldn’t resist listening to...

Thu, 09 May 2013 00:53:00 -0500

This song lyrics hit me so hard, I couldn’t resist listening to this and allowing it to stay hidden. People who don’t know about me can get a good synopsis through this song. It’s a funny life to be so known, yet unknown at the same time. Humility has always been my motto regardless of who says what, because even though there’s so much pressure to cast away your beliefs, good nature, and ability to encompass what being human is… Always, always, remain the person YOU believe in. Not anyone else.

"Now I may have faith to make mountains fall But if I lack love, then I am nothin’ at all I can..."

Sat, 04 May 2013 12:24:02 -0500

“Now I may have faith to make mountains fall
But if I lack love, then I am nothin’ at all
I can give away everything I possess
But left without love then I have no happiness
I know I’m imperfect, and not without sin
But now that I’m older all childish things end”

"A friend once said, and I found to be true - that everyday people, they lie to God too. So what..."

Sat, 04 May 2013 12:15:20 -0500

“A friend once said, and I found to be true - that everyday people, they lie to God too. So what makes you think they won’t lie to you?”

C.B.

Sat, 04 May 2013 12:03:00 -0500

“The discipline of desire is the background of character.” John Locke

Discipline of Desire:

Desire: A longing or craving, as for something that brings satisfaction or enjoyment

Discipline: behavior in accord with rules of conduct; behavior and order maintained by training and control

LOVE:

Desire can come in all shapes, sizes, and be hidden in many different forms. Desire can be that woman/man that you see on occasion but every time you get a glance of him/her you feel an overwhelming “desire” to speak, or to lust over “having” that moment of clarity that speaks so positively within your fantasies. It could be that one particular food that you “desire” and no matter where you go, what diet your on, or if that goes against our health you find some way to continuously devour with ecstasy. Even clothing or material objects could be of a lustful desire. That Bentley coupe, those Burberry boots, or maybe that Fendi bag that keeps you feeling that if you had this ONE item your life would be complete or at least until next fall comes and the new line is presented.

Desire can be a beautiful addition to your world but you have to know like with all things when and where it is appropriate to let go of your desires and explore it to the depths of its new found land. We are human YES but we have a conscious and with this comes our true knowledge of when we should make the right decisions and not be bias when desire steps in.

RELATIONSHIPS:

When you truly love someone with love comes respect. With respect comes responsibility and with responsibility comes hard decisions when entering into a relationship or union. Desire seems to always pop up everywhere you turn right? The woman that you work with, the man that persists on buying you a drink in the club, the woman that continuously texts you even while knowing you are involved and doesn’t feel that YOU are that serious about your lover. Well all these things are tests of the will. Can you control yourself even when you are not in your lover’s presence? How far can you go if not at all? Or how do you know when you are crossing the line. These are all questions that show weakness because deep down inside you know what you would and wouldn’t do, and yet you consistently make the wrong decisions? Which is another example of two opposites coming together perfectly because “consistency” and “wrong” seem to go hand in hand allot of times when we are making these decisions.

Honestly put yourself in your spouse’s shoes and ask yourself if you could be in that moment with them when they take that number, when they engage in over the top conversations, when they get a little loose with their emails would you enjoy watching that? Would you enjoy seeing that other person kiss someone with that SAME passionate kiss that you THOUGHT y’all only shared? Regardless if your heart lies with them is not right to live right even when you could easily live wrong? Its so easy to add someone with no meaning into your life..right? Or is it just “physically” easy but “emotionally” upsetting and confusing? You are free to make your own call. But I can tell you this, the more confusion you add into your life the more confusion you will have with every breath that you take when thinking of that person that you love and care for. Allot of times we take problems and we spread them throughout our day, even mixing them with other outside problems with jobs, car, kids, etc. So next time you think that the grass is greener consider the fact that you cant see how far green the grass goes.

DISCIPLINE:

It is the backbone to your conscious. It is the reason why you kept that weight off, why you are healthier and why you continuously make better decisions and enter into adult hood as smooth as possible. Discipline can open so many doors past the pettiness that you experience day in and day out. Who cares what the next person is doing or wearing or saying? You have lived as long as you lived without even KNOWING that person yet you let them say, do or think for you? So how did you make all of the positive moves you have made so far without their help? Or maybe you are in an mentally abusive relationship? Your their because you haven’t disciplined yourself enough to even know who YOU are so you keep attaching yourself to the one person’s company that DOESN’T change and is always available because you don’t want to discipline yourself to know who YOU are.

Lets do better everyone. Lets focus on finding our wants our desires and our limitations so that when we are blessed with something wonderful we can truly appreciate it for everything that it is AND all the doors it can possibly open.

I have made many mistakes in my life but I never have counted them, I only count how many lessons I have learned from them. Appreciate that person that just wants to see you smile TRULY. Not that person who came around yesterday and you think is going to solve your problems.

Character : The aggregate of features and traits that form the individual nature of some person or thing.

Character can be negative or positive but at the end of the day it shapes the person that you are. Character can be made up of the lessons you have learned, been honored to be blessed with or that you trudged through. But the point of life is that you take lemons and make lemonade. If you continuously talk about everything bad you have gone through how bad can it honestly be if your STILL HERE conversing about it? Also you have someone that obviously cares if you are TALKING about it with them? So out of this horrible situation your still here talking about it and someone wants to hear and give an opinion about what is bothering you so much? So you have friends who care and good health? Is that not two positive things without even looking at whatever situation is at hand?

Be blessed and be strong because desire isn’t worth loosing stability over. Discipline will help guide you past all the road blocks, and character will continue you on your road to success.

"Be so good they can’t ignore you."

Sat, 04 May 2013 11:51:00 -0500

“Be so good they can’t ignore you.”

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Wed, 01 May 2013 16:36:01 -0500

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Tue, 30 Apr 2013 21:40:39 -0500

"Never let someone’s actions (or lack of) control your mood, feelings, or personality."

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 19:02:38 -0500

“Never let someone’s actions (or lack of) control your mood, feelings, or personality.”

You cannot fight fire with fireAn eye for an eye leaves...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 00:26:36 -0500

You cannot fight fire with fire
An eye for an eye leaves everyone blind and
We are all slaves of desire
Controlled by the things we think that we need
No, I’m not trying to preach to the choir
‘Cause I’m just a girl born unto this world but
I am no God or Messiah
But here’s what I know

Everything must go
Like everything you know, forget about it
Everything must go
Like everything you think you know

Everything must go
Like everything you know, forget about it
Everything must go
Like everything you think you know

After the fire
We each have one sweatsuit and one pair of shoes
No, nothing designer
But smile anyway ‘cause my mama said that
Happiness comes from within, so
What you create for you, no one can take from you
Your energy and your soul
Is all that goes, wherever we go

Everything else don’t
Like everything you own, forget about it
Everything must go
Like everything you think you know

Everything must go
Like everything you know, forget about it
Everything must go
Like everything you think you know

Can’t take it with you when we go
Tell everybody that you know
That everything yeah, everything must go

Everything must go
Like everything you know
Everything must go
Like everything, like everything you know

Everything must go
Tell everybody that you know

Daily Jam.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:53:22 -0500

Memories Back Then - T.I., Kendrick Lamar, B.o.B.Very good...

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 21:25:16 -0500

Memories Back Then - T.I., Kendrick Lamar, B.o.B.

Very good writing on this song, it def. was on replay this weekend.

"When the lights go out, and I’m in my bed I think of all the madness in my head… All of..."

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 21:25:00 -0500

“

When the lights go out, and I’m in my bed
I think of all the madness in my head…

All of the things that I did back then.

When I’m in my bed,
I think of all the memories I’ve had…

All of the things I did back then

”

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Sat, 27 Apr 2013 15:30:49 -0500

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Sat, 27 Apr 2013 15:23:38 -0500

What a Life.

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 10:58:00 -0500

They say the truth ain’t pretty,
but coming from that pretty mouth..
the truth is fitting.

…you ain’t never talking loud,
and you know plenty.

You know what I’m talkin` bout
Cause you just get me,

Yeah you so.. pretty.

If everything is dipped in gold,
then baby it will never grow.
Everything sweet ain’t sugarcoated..

What a life.

What a Life.

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 10:56:29 -0500

I been through some shit man,
but I be on my shit man.

I decided.. that what you give is what you’re given

So I been tryna do it right.. I been doing like,
Whatever gets me through the night..

I’m steady always on the go,
You steady always on the go,
We steady losing all control,

What a life.

Funny how movies you believe are pointless can teach you such an...

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 02:01:00 -0500

Funny how movies you believe are pointless can teach you such an important a life lesson.